When Feeling Stuck in between the Zones

When  its like being stuck on a bench upon a very important game is in progress where you know your contribution can profoundly affect things… yet u aren’t ever given a chance to get off the bench and make a play... or sometimes what of this, if you don’t even know what your contribution is… or so often how about these, you haven’t been allowed to play for so long that you begin to doubt and question what that true purpose or real leading call you ever had was all that true or not …

And I hear you say in your darkness and giving up moments those very trying times, the sandwich moronic catharsis of feeling it all and yet not being able to pin down any level of the sense. I hear you breathing in the sighing moments of morning till night:

and at this point i m like ok fine I ll just sit on this fuqn bench until the cows come home, i will no longer try to get in that game, not unless explicitly and powerfully invited..

And in those splendiferous moments of making no sense at all it is what awakens in the bridge light of the spirit working already deep within. It is the molding of the clay in the bigger patterns, the greater levels of being.  No matter how broken or misjudged or out of alignment I feel, it is here and more affirmed and known : spirit is already working with me and always

When i m in thses spaces of such in ordinate funk

music is what gets to me or

for some it could be your writing, healing poetry, the nature, the walks, whatever it may be. May be just allowing to release and float and you will know, you will come home, you will be carried back into the flow by and by. All is well and you would assured more than ever before.

Some times all it takes is connecting back to your breath and back into your self and you are reminded, here you are , in the fullness and glory, so broken and yet fully whole and you are back in track and flow to take on all you are here to bring and give. You will be smiling back in the assuredness and

and i just got this from spirit

and I so do know you will.

you will have your chance in all this and you will

you will and you will and over and over and over again. Not only does the big waves of amazing vortex of creation know this but then you are and you are forever more meant to be. There are ripples in the oceans of creations and ponds as much needed and didn’t you know. But know that YOU ARE and you simply being you is where your purpose is met.

You cannot not do your purpose! That’s impossible. You be your purpose and you are always being that even through the utmost most deriding stages. If I look into your soul song individually and the truth of your calling, it will show you the very patterns why you are living your purpose no matter and your true destiny is lived in every moment no matter what the outward may come to be or not.

We might be falsely measuring the purpose to the launch of the book, or a specific element derived in business or earth work or family life or meeting aspects of relationships or even inner self growth which we term as real intrinsic core work and not outward. However, all these levels of balancing the spectrum in the outside are our own aspects of desires and not part of the true path of purpose that realness in core essence wants us to be. Of course all these are cool and such desires are amazing and create more of concrete measures of creations, making more things moving on in earth time fields. But even then these are not parts of your unique coding of purpose. What you live and be at purpose level you already and all ready are all that greatness and living it beyond the patterns of the apparent, you are already on the path of its fulfillment in the past as much and as much of course in your present and the future in finite. There is no way you cannot be not it as you are never without it, you are always it even amidst the most turmoil points of your life where you feel most out of context from your core self.

You being you, just as you are right NOW is all and every thing here here needing to be met. And of course with your clear feeling authentic desires, and so long as we are human we shall always have those, and be playing in the fields. So there are sooosooo much more and you will indeed have to give this to the all... often very precious gifts are not found by greater than easy to be met appointing and some foundational works are at transgressing processes through the fallow stages. The beauty and light and joy of such stages may not be apparent to us especially when we are in them but once present to the true seeing through the patterns, we are shown again and all over again how these are indeed and always have been opportunities for veil thinning times, for ever more. Each one of us being bearer of those rich amazing gifts, the truth of abundance within and out, as we live and so be it in our true calling and truth. And with each one in our own intrinsic gifts, the truth of such levels of our own unique offerings are exactly needed in the right timing for all needed and that’s always true living of our own unique purpose. Sometimes the galactic troubadors come to find the greater earth core not matching the frequency of what they are about to give but by going through very contradictory upheavals experienced in dimensions. These are the real ones matching the planes and opening the true real new gateways for the new dawn of humanity as is most needed now. This is what has been going on for you and me and many such through the short gestures or greater lunges, these are not awkward measures from the new path breaking creations. But these are indeed forming the new realness of the truth and reality the new world ordaining is being created here to give most of.

You are not shunned away but they are being deprived of course to come to this true union of the new world, bear within that you hold the re union cosmic pattern right within you. So as you unite deep within the cosmic semantic semblance right within you, you shall come in the fullness of the awakened transitioning forbearing as within so without. As you bear the union of heart and mind and the balanced essence of the cosmic new light of feminine and masculine and the face of the new changing earth planes you bring the holy uniting cohesion more beyond than ever, as is most needed.  And there are those around like you though in their own unique forms are in hiding still and facing similar or almost quite. ... Do know and they do go through these phases. Even simpler ones like me do go through those. You will be met and met beyond, many times more. There are chances of those not to be left alone and in the human cohesion bonding of love, for that is indeed the truth. But then know even in our different roles we are not alone and we have to go through these because of the differing frequencies in these abject earth realms. In the all pervasive ground you have met it all. So let it go and just enjoy BEING. What you are and who you are cannot be taken away from you. You are drained in the physical mental emotional dimension but it is temporary. in within you are full, over brimmed, over over pregnant and that is why in expectation of delivery the static energy of the union as within the womb is not finding its way out. Play in any way you can. Leave the purpose for just a while and just be you. It will come to be met in the matching frequencies all over again. i know this seems all contradictory to what we are meant to be. But this is the part of the greater cosmic labor pain we go through. Each of the galactic light bringers who are not really of earth has to go through in this detached realm process. Your purpose is not and cannot be taken from you cuz you being you is the greatest gift and purpose. What we are sharing is part of it. Even your womb void is part of it, there is no other way. Truly. You will come to meet this all in the letting go.  The greater earth and world will find your gifts in the divine blessings. Purely stay present and true to you and let

gladness beyond enroll ~*~