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So in my drought and puzzle of not having or meeting the real one or feeling amidst the hopelessness I too sought active counsel of a soul seeing discerning friend. Maybe there were pieces of the puzzle I was missing, not seeing at that current juncture or was it was I dreaming fake for some true connection hood? Was there going to be an end of the desert spell of such loneliness? We all have doubts fighting demonic battles inside our hearts when such heart light breaks down in to chaotic pieces in the mayhem of sudden human transitions. Doubting and feeling off being set in tune by the twin guides so far, maybe all this is fake and nothing is real I could fight no more but surrender for help amidst my clear seeing path and leading light for many I needed a heart reflection, a pool to rest amidst the turmoil. Suddenly into step back from the noise and seek counsel of another I trusted to be old and wise enough in the realms. With such directions in heart path I did took and ...

The Feminine is finally meeting her pain with a respectful namaste. Her pain is her oldest teacher. Also the one she's avoided facing at all costs. Finally, she's putting her attention to it. Feeling it fully without running away is scary,  its specially hard stay in it. Her sankalpa to shift her consciousness is coming from a space that is much larger than her contractions. Her practice is to continue to breathe into her 'not knowing'. Slowly, as she experiences her dark, agonising spaces without resistance, it begins to take her through the dark allies of lifetime after lifetime of victim/aggressor existence. And at the end of the tunnel, she meets love. Intense, blinding, golden, shimmering love. She melts into it. She brings back as much of this love as she needs, and repairs her fragmented life, replenishes her atrophied arteries, and feeds the cramped and aching parts. Her numb parts come alive, & her body begins to shift at a cellular level. Her pain body ~ ...