love, metaphysics, alchemy and raw

So in my drought and puzzle of not having or meeting the real one or feeling amidst the hopelessness I too sought active counsel of a soul seeing discerning friend. Maybe there were pieces of the puzzle I was missing, not seeing at that current juncture or was it was I dreaming fake for some true connection hood? Was there going to be an end of the desert spell of such loneliness? We all have doubts fighting demonic battles inside our hearts when such heart light breaks down in to chaotic pieces in the mayhem of sudden human transitions. Doubting and feeling off being set in tune by the twin guides so far, maybe all this is fake and nothing is real I could fight no more but surrender for help amidst my clear seeing path and leading light for many I needed a heart reflection, a pool to rest amidst the turmoil. Suddenly into step back from the noise and seek counsel of another I trusted to be old and wise enough in the realms. With such directions in heart path I did took and ...

    The gloaming of life transition from one dimension to energetic shift to another, specially when one is transitioning from earthly realms to the next is a very interesting and as unique way birth as possible. The triansitioning into death is truly a birth into another dimension. According to what I have been given and known, seen, perceived, opened through, the eternal extension of the service realm of the energetic portals ceaselessly go on. We shift from one dimension or form to another and keep reverting to different existence of forms in energetic shifts. There are no specific aspects of pin pointing energetic shifts and how denser or closer or clearer to truth do we need be, its all beyond ideas or forthright coming human realms of existence. What truly changes the realmatic dimension of what we often perceive as earthly realities to be finite comes shattering in the birth of the death. Through the eons of stages the limiting consciousness of human realms per...

The only thing that can fill you up is your connection to your genius, your devotion to your purpose and love is: the love of all that is. This one is of our core connection that we must find out in our essential being. When we have deepened our purest connection to our essential self then we must find out. Even if you were in love with the perfect person and that one was to leave you or die or the relationship got broken or there were situations in between there would be despair all abounds. Human love is not perfect and it is never meant to reach to any level of perfection attaining in life stream, our 3d attaining or attuning of the multidimensional in the earth plane experiencing of our live forms. So we are always at work, can do and even go to levels of tastes of it. It is helpful to totally come into the understanding of the realness of truth is that there are many, many endless ways to experience love. It is not just one way or the other and way we may or may not fulfill us....

What we do realize and know on authentic soul alignment path to all of our brings is that in our growth the bratty showy ness of it all would come popping its head (yes, more of the head and in terms of emotional tantrum than authentic use of balance in co creation) from time and again till we have accumulated the lessons unfurled No, spirit and universe is not going to give you brownie points and you are not to escape your muddy shoes till you have the house or that relationship or that goal upon your life path or career. Most likely spirit and universe fields loves it when you come undone in the purest presence of your authentic self and what we call the core essence, the constant stripping down bare to your realness and realest self hood. This part is interesting and mesmerizing still how much we are taken abject from the real core truth calls of our own deepest inner levels of calling and coming in parts to service. It is surprising still we always keep bringing in earth tim...

Letting go is the essential full tandem cyclical force and versification of nature in essence. I keep getting the nudged the highest directed especially when in terms of working with twin relationship relating whether for self or another I am at work with. This comes especially true that the bigger the purpose of a relationship in our life vortex or greater the karmic impact of any aspect we are to experience greater pangs of separation anxiety or sometimes even when together, the challenges. Letting go means really being in the present, releasing expectations, the “who” even or what or how. It is about being fully immersed loyal to the love, the loving nature of all that is which is forever open, ready and for you and all you are here about. This is not about holding on something that is out of your control despite the dreams, desires, longing and however much you may feel the depth of the connection. One the twin alignment path the shamanic dreams of recent ordering focused on...

In the shamanic dream regression and life path explorations of many layers I came to the full recognition of some of my deepest old held fears. These included some of the old held pre life fears of uncalled for devotion to a cause or a condition of a life especially when as a nun. The uncalled for devotion led to many directions towards one’s life and surprisingly this aspect of being a nun of the ages or having to be in a mode of life absolutely dedicated to seclusion, service and one’s loyalty as well as tending to fears from deeper isolation from societal structure came crashing down in many blows and layers in this one. In another life time the execution of the self and ex communication, an aspect of living that we in the fullness of union merging of the divine feminine masculine pathways can relate, tore into me the veils of many levels of fear that needed to be released. The 1 st  of which was proclaiming one’s right, authentic call as a wise woman shaman healer of th...

For all of us ready and open to move from our smaller selves out into the bigger stuff, in embracing our soul spirit united purpose the great news is:  help is all around for our on every realm and dynamics no matter the kind of emotional sludge, uncovering and deeper realms of opening we are going through. Don’t expect all and everyone to be following on the toot of their own soul truth trumpets or the beating of pure heart aligning drums. Each one is exactly where they are however unfounded or dumb the soul truth or wrongness of doing may stand out from something or someone there is always space and growth. Through the enormity of the diffidence of times and flow there is a call for each one’s soul given choices and higher self presencing that really gives way to something even greater than that which comes to be apparently present. There is always something more than the present in the immediate and there is also more and beyond, outside that presence which is happening in ma...